Thank you for reading. And reflecting. Honesty, and self awareness are two of my greatest strengths, if I do say so myself. Much thanks to Iboga, I’m cultivating the compassion to balance those with!
I’ve never the Ibolga. Really powerful share, and uncovering all of the layers of addiction and self abandonment. That’s definitely how Healing works. I feel that the periods of time where you can smile at yourself in the mirror and where you feel at home in your body become wider. So pleased to hear this is how your journey is unfolding, I definitely relate to using cannabis to manage the taskmaster I do the same. And I would like to be able to just calm down without it.
Cannabis was my best and longest friend. It helped me release the acute eating disorder. Sort of replaced one addiction with another. Cannabis is so beautiful, but impossible for me to use moderately, and when used chronically can with cons as well as pros. It was so hard to quit before. I tried. After Iboga, the cravings were literally reduced by like ninety percent. I pray you have the opportunity someday to sit with Iboga. It’s a miracle of nature.
I pray I do too Ani it sounds so powerful, I even feel like psilocybin helped me release a lot of layers in my own eating disorder. So I can only imagine Iboga could do. I’m sure it’s so transformative! That’s incredible to hear your unraveling with it. I’m so happy it’s helped you move through so much. And yeah, we can definitely be addictive, I used to be a heavy smoker. Then I quit for quite some time and since it hasn’t had quite the same hold over me. Cannabis for me tends to make the inner critic a lot louder, although very occasionally I can find a strain that doesn’t do that and then I go all out! 😅
Seems like coming to terms by feeling entirely through the suffering that comes with all addictive patterns offers us, in time, a clearer choice: do we want to keep going down this route? Then, we may get lucky enough to realize the addictive patterns are out of our control and we need help. In AA for example, it is the acknowledgement that since we dont have control of our subtle or not so subtle patterns, we humbly ask God, , for help us. God in this context can be whatever/whoever resonates for us. This recipe seems to work. After a gazillion AA meetings it was pretty clear, the old timers who had not relapsed, hadn’t because they were so desperate and bottomed out they truly turned control over to a higher power. They would say that those acts created the conditions for a miracle or magic that got them done. At that point the work began; the unwinding of the patterns and consequential somatic experiencing of all of it that led to the addictions. Seems like for you Iboga is the higher power. I am so glad you found it.
Thank you. Yes. That degree of surrender. Using our free will to acknowledge that we have no control over. The humility to ask for help and the faith to believe we may receive it. To confront where our own false sense of unworthiness has been running the show.
My experience with Iboga was the most positive intimate I’ve ever felt with God itself, for hours, days. Ineffably profound. I am so grateful it was honestly an answer to prayers I’ve made for years
Beautiful sharing. Thank you for your raw honesty. May we all discovering this quality of softening and healing within ourselves. 🙏
It is absolutely my prayer that the work we do on ourselves be on the behalf of all beings, that we may all find peace and freedom.
Just beautiful, I just love the honesty of it all. Thank you for letting us in on your journey.
Thank you for reading. And reflecting. Honesty, and self awareness are two of my greatest strengths, if I do say so myself. Much thanks to Iboga, I’m cultivating the compassion to balance those with!
I’ve never the Ibolga. Really powerful share, and uncovering all of the layers of addiction and self abandonment. That’s definitely how Healing works. I feel that the periods of time where you can smile at yourself in the mirror and where you feel at home in your body become wider. So pleased to hear this is how your journey is unfolding, I definitely relate to using cannabis to manage the taskmaster I do the same. And I would like to be able to just calm down without it.
Cannabis was my best and longest friend. It helped me release the acute eating disorder. Sort of replaced one addiction with another. Cannabis is so beautiful, but impossible for me to use moderately, and when used chronically can with cons as well as pros. It was so hard to quit before. I tried. After Iboga, the cravings were literally reduced by like ninety percent. I pray you have the opportunity someday to sit with Iboga. It’s a miracle of nature.
I pray I do too Ani it sounds so powerful, I even feel like psilocybin helped me release a lot of layers in my own eating disorder. So I can only imagine Iboga could do. I’m sure it’s so transformative! That’s incredible to hear your unraveling with it. I’m so happy it’s helped you move through so much. And yeah, we can definitely be addictive, I used to be a heavy smoker. Then I quit for quite some time and since it hasn’t had quite the same hold over me. Cannabis for me tends to make the inner critic a lot louder, although very occasionally I can find a strain that doesn’t do that and then I go all out! 😅
Seems like coming to terms by feeling entirely through the suffering that comes with all addictive patterns offers us, in time, a clearer choice: do we want to keep going down this route? Then, we may get lucky enough to realize the addictive patterns are out of our control and we need help. In AA for example, it is the acknowledgement that since we dont have control of our subtle or not so subtle patterns, we humbly ask God, , for help us. God in this context can be whatever/whoever resonates for us. This recipe seems to work. After a gazillion AA meetings it was pretty clear, the old timers who had not relapsed, hadn’t because they were so desperate and bottomed out they truly turned control over to a higher power. They would say that those acts created the conditions for a miracle or magic that got them done. At that point the work began; the unwinding of the patterns and consequential somatic experiencing of all of it that led to the addictions. Seems like for you Iboga is the higher power. I am so glad you found it.
Thank you. Yes. That degree of surrender. Using our free will to acknowledge that we have no control over. The humility to ask for help and the faith to believe we may receive it. To confront where our own false sense of unworthiness has been running the show.
My experience with Iboga was the most positive intimate I’ve ever felt with God itself, for hours, days. Ineffably profound. I am so grateful it was honestly an answer to prayers I’ve made for years